I am just a few months away from being in my mid-30s. I have a summer birthday so I am one of the last of my friends to always turn a certain age. When I was younger, that really stunk. I was the last one to officially become a teenager, I was one of the last to get my license, to become a legal adult and to buy my first drink. Now, of course, it’s nice to be the youngest one, I am the last one to officially “get old”… But, either way, we are either there or soon will be. As I’ve mentioned before, turning 30 hit me pretty hard, not because I had regrets or felt my youth was gone but only because I had not thought of my life past 30. I have found though a joy and relief in giving up control and not planning my life so strictly. I have been in the process of really overhauling my life and I feel so much joy and so alive in putting my trust in His plan for me. So many people I know in their 30’s are really grabbing on to a new dream for their life or realizing the way their life has gone was not what they imagined and aren’t happy with that change. Where can we begin when we aren’t happy but the next step is unclear or it’s so clear but too scary to even entertain the thought? God never promises us that life will be easy, everybody has their crosses to bear, but God does promise us his love and his mercy and only asks us to be ourselves and to not be afraid. We also need to listen and to be honest -- mostly with ourselves. It’s so much easier sometimes to tell ourselves lies and hope that the hard part just goes away eventually but that’s the funny thing about the truth; it doesn't go away if you ignore it, it just sits there, waiting for you, usually festering until you can no longer ignore it. I don’t have it all figured out; I’m extremely happy with my life but I still lie to myself about facts that are too painful to face yet. I make the same mistakes over and over again and they fill me with frustration but I know that those are the things I need to pray about and ask for help because clearly I cannot do it on my own. Why did I ever think I could? I continue to learn, to grow and to lean more on my Lord each day.
I am just a few months away from being in my mid-30s. I have a summer birthday so I am one of the last of my friends to always turn a certain age. When I was younger, that really stunk. I was the last one to officially become a teenager, I was one of the last to get my license, to become a legal adult and to buy my first drink. Now, of course, it’s nice to be the youngest one, I am the last one to officially “get old”… But, either way, we are either there or soon will be. As I’ve mentioned before, turning 30 hit me pretty hard, not because I had regrets or felt my youth was gone but only because I had not thought of my life past 30. I have found though a joy and relief in giving up control and not planning my life so strictly. I have been in the process of really overhauling my life and I feel so much joy and so alive in putting my trust in His plan for me. So many people I know in their 30’s are really grabbing on to a new dream for their life or realizing the way their life has gone was not what they imagined and aren’t happy with that change. Where can we begin when we aren’t happy but the next step is unclear or it’s so clear but too scary to even entertain the thought? God never promises us that life will be easy, everybody has their crosses to bear, but God does promise us his love and his mercy and only asks us to be ourselves and to not be afraid. We also need to listen and to be honest -- mostly with ourselves. It’s so much easier sometimes to tell ourselves lies and hope that the hard part just goes away eventually but that’s the funny thing about the truth; it doesn't go away if you ignore it, it just sits there, waiting for you, usually festering until you can no longer ignore it. I don’t have it all figured out; I’m extremely happy with my life but I still lie to myself about facts that are too painful to face yet. I make the same mistakes over and over again and they fill me with frustration but I know that those are the things I need to pray about and ask for help because clearly I cannot do it on my own. Why did I ever think I could? I continue to learn, to grow and to lean more on my Lord each day.
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